13 - HOW FLATTERING

"Write something nice about yourself"


I have never said something really good about myself, nor written one. I have always given myself a hard time or have always put myself down. Never in my life I have complimented myself, it had always been the other way around.

Most of the time I have always said to myself that I have done absolutely nothing right. That in my life I have never actually done something relevant. I have always put to thought that I will never be someone who has done something astonishing. So this time maybe I'll change that. Maybe by doing this I could boost my self-esteem a little and maybe make me feel better.

Dear Red,

You are God's greatest gift to mankind. You have the hair of a thousand unicorns but black, which flows freely into the sunset. You have eyes glimmering like a death of a star. Which causes a stare from which one can be paralyzed with awe. Your lips red as the blood of an innocent. One kiss can send you to heaven's gate. A smile in which a hundreds of babies happiness are bestowed upon you have. And with a glance of this smile in which you have sends one crying with happiness. You Red, have a skin in which once touched feels like soft cottons in fields of never ending fairness in which your skin is.

You are a man who is sensible, and yet at times a retard in which makes you a hilarious man. You are also sensitive, in which makes you considerate and helpful to others. You are hardworking young man, in a sense where you strive hard to attain what you want. Loving is what you are. You have given all your love and have truly made others feel it. Playful, you are in which still makes you a kid at heart.

An artist you shall be, one must just wait. You have proven to become better and better as you age and mature. Keep on striving and you will reach your goal. One must remember that the greatest ones start from somewhere. And from where you are at, you are at a great spot.

Keep on being who you are, you must remember. For I see greatness in you, no matter what you say to yourself. One must never tire from what he is doing so he should learn and know more. You must remember you are you. You show greatness in you, you must just look for it and not tire searching for it.

                                                                                                                         -NARCISSISTIC RED

12 - NOT NOW, NOT EVER

"What troubles and fears do you have?"

I have finally found someone worth keeping. I know I have probably said that already to some past relationship, but this time it really is different. have you ever felt it would be the end if she left? The feeling that  when something happens to her you won't forgive yourself? I bet some of you have.

Now that I am looking to settle down for this one girl I love, the greatest fear I have now is losing her. The feeling of someone really special to you just vanishing or leaving just messes with my head. It feels like the end of the world just thinking about it.

I have never been happier in my life continuously everyday since I met her. She was the highlight of my year last year. All the things we share, all the things we have in common just makes us even closer each and everyday. I have not missed a day not thinking of her, she just really pops out of my thoughts. She's the girl I see a future with, having her as my wife, having children, growing old with. I have been attached to her even though we have only been together officially for four months which will be on this Friday.

Now imagine all that feeling vanishing in an instant. It won't be a pretty right? All those feeling you feel everyday just vanishes without a trace. How much sadness would you think I will feel if that ever happened? And of course relationships are not perfect, we have fights at times. Which makes me more scared of losing you. What if one time you just get tired of me? What if one time you just decide to go because you can't stand me anymore? I would probably go to a deep depression. That is why this is my greatest fear, losing you. No matter how many problems we have I'll face it with you. Just so I can be with you until we grow old. This is how much I love you.

11 - PHEW...

Ever slept at a place you have no clue who the people are? Have you ever slept in the most uncomfortable way like standing up? Well I have, and it was due to the sleepless nights filled with so many homework. It felt so weird and so humiliating experiencing those.

Those days when you go to school with no sleep are just one way to learn nothing, because of your brain not functioning well because it's too tired, and one way to get killed, because we're too tired to care. These are just some things students have to go through everyday, but not what happened to me.

It was those days when you had a little or no sleep at all.But like everybody else, I had to bear with it. So I was on my way home, tired and half awake, not really aware of what's happening around me. I rode the MRT, and you know MRT's How crowded they are and how you just mostly stand until you get to your station. As I was standing there with minimal space in between people and unable to move, a guy beside me decided to go all retard and not think of the obvious. He scolded me for not holding on to the safety handrails and that I was leaning on him. I got pissed and humiliated for the fact that he said that out loud which made all the people in that silent train stare at me like I killed somebody. Ashamed, I just kept quiet.

After getting off the train, my long travel home wasn't over. I still had A 30 minute to an hour jeepney ride (depending on the traffic). Since it was significantly long I decided to sleep while on the ride, which was a pretty good idea that time since I was really exhausted. I slept almost through the ride,\. Just waking up randomly to know where I was, But suddenly there was a rude awakening.

A guy beside me suddenly tapped me and said "HOY! Gumising ka na! Muntik ka na manakawan." I frowned because he woke me up but then suddenly my face went confused because of what he said. Once again I got pissed and humiliated, but it didn't last as I heard the story of what happened when I was asleep. I overheard that a random guy asked my seatmate if I was with him (the guy who woke me up) while eyeballing my phone in my chest pocket. My seatmate said yes just to save me from getting robbed. In my head I was thinking " Wow, this person is really nice after all. Never knew people like him still existed."

As I near my stop, I was planning to thank him on my way down the jeep, but then he went down before i did. So I didn't get the chance. I still Thank that guy so much. He made me think twice before sleeping in a jeep. Now I don't, not unless I'm with somebody with me. But if you come to think of it, that was close!

10 - ARE YOU RETARDED?

It started of as this one man riding this majestic horse gallops across a barren wasteland crosses glance with another man on top of a hillside. This man his eyes met just stayed there, just watching him while resting on his horse. He then slowly got of his horse and continued to stare at the man across the wasteland. As they stopped and stared at each others soul, both of them knew that it would be a long battle.

The man from across the wasteland charged with all his might. He fired his long slim bow with no hesitation. But as he fired, the man from the hillside prepared himself and just catches the arrow in his hands. He then also gets his bow and uses the arrow he caught to fire back. But like a scene from the movie "Wanted", the man from across the wasteland fired his bow and their arrows met in mid-air. Shot after shot are fired back and forth, almost as if they have blocked the sun. Soon they got tired of using the bow. The man from the hillside then draws his great sword, which legends says has killed an ancient dragon. He then charges forth to the man across the wasteland yelling a bloodcurdling whale trying to strike fear to this man's soul. But it did not seem to affect him, as this man across the wasteland then prepares himself to counter attack. Swords then slashed through the air, making sounds of which showed how much power they had in every swing. Swords hit and sparks flew as they continued to whale at each other. Neither of the them seemed to feel a little exhaustion.

But then a sudden change. A change in time suddenly happened before them. Like a scene from "iron man" they suddenly both put on his suit of armor, getting ready for another duel to the death. As if they have never even started, they both fought once more. Repulsor blasts shooting across the sky like laser light shows as they fought one another. But before one man can even land a blow, the bell rang.

Yes, the bell rang. This whole fight was just an idiotic imaginary fight by two retarded friends. It has always been a daily thing, this duel to the death. It happens everyday inside their classroom, fighting one another as if they were really at it. This two idiotic friends are named JP and Red, bestfriends who do this for their past time.

9 - LACKLUSTER

My head is slumped

near a small rectangle.

This thing lays beside me.

It just lays there,

Not moving, not touched, just still.

I stare at this paper

with both eyes wondering,

whether if it was the same,

full of doodles

which was made with ease.

This paper with nothing in it

waits for brand new inspiration.

A fuel that makes it work,

A hand with a pencil,

that would scribble, scribble, and scribble.

A paper who just sits there

tries for glory,

and yet he fails.

He tries to come get back up,

but stumbles in the end.

Small rectangular paper

when shall you stand once more?

Time is finite,

you should take note,

for you may later regret it all

8 - DANA MIKAELLA SANTOS

"I was happiest when...."

When I am with her there's no place I would ever feel this way ever again. I never think of anything else when I'm with her, it would not make sense anymore, for nothing else really matters anymore when I'm with her.  Even when I'm just there beside her already completes my day. With the simplest things she does, like her smile, her laughter or just her being there makes everything feel alright. Nothing would ever compare to this happiness I am in, nothing in the whole world.

With all the things she has ever done, making me feel happy is the number one. I never knew she would do it so easily, but then again she just pulls it off in a jiffy. Maybe she was meant for this, making me all tingly inside, besides she takes time to set things aside. She said she was just for me, I guess she did not know how much that means we are meant to be. That's what she always mentions, just to relieve my tension. She really does know where to hit the spot, I guess I hit the jackpot. Why are you so good at this, as if you just want me to kiss, but if you do want to insist, let's take time to persist. You do know you make me miss you, as if you were a police, who should just pop on queue. You just make me so happy, in times when I'm sad you're just so handy. Oh I love you my sweet sweet baby, you're just a cute cute dainty.

How sad it would be if you were to leave. I wish you could just stay, for I never I would want to know to the feeling if you were to go. I know this sounds too cliche, but can you be my forever? You just don't know how happy I felt, when I fell for you. Oh boy, I really do love YOU.

7 - MINE!

"Write about an incident that illustrates selfishness"

All eyes was at her, this one girl. Men stop and turn their heads just to look at her. Men even ask her questions I could not believe.

Never in my whole life I would become this monster. A monster of selfishness, in which it is because of this one girl. Well to me she's not just a girl, she's my everything now, everything I have ever dreamt of. This one girl just turned the tables and changed my whole game. This girl I call "MINE". 

It all started when we got together, I knew from the start she was going to do something out of the extraordinary, something that would lead me to my captivation to her and me begging at her knees. I didn't notice this but this was my theory, one night when I went to her place she offered me a drink, a drink that I thought was unlikely, given the fact that it was given to me immediately and with excitement. With no other choice and because I was lacking of h2o, drank it bottoms up, and as I slowly put down the glass, I felt it immediately. I was turning into a monster!

Just kidding. Well, we all have that moment in our lives where we tend to be over protective for the things really important to us. Never in our whole lives think of bad things happening to something that is really important to us. Sometimes in our lives we tend to go overboard and become this selfish person. Now what I am gonna talk about is me having my girlfriend.

Everyone of us (guys) tend to be really really REALLY protective with our girls, like me for example. I am the most jealous-type of guy I know, so I tend to get jealous on the most stupidest stuff and be over protective at times. Just like that instance when me and my girlfriend are just walking, and for some reason all the guys stare. No matter what age they are, they stare! Sometimes it just really get uncomfortable, like that instance where a perverted looking guy stares at her and I stare at this guy and wont even budge! In my head I'm like "should I tell him I'd kill him?" but then again the other part of my brain is telling "Let it pass man, it will be over soon", so I have that going through my head every time. Plus, there is just this feeling I don't like when people stare at my girl. I'm all like "This girls mine dude, like come one! Freaking stop starring! She's mine okay! And you can't have her!"

Now let's not forget my jealous moments shall we not? There was this one time where she had a crush (we all know how they go when they have crushes) on a guy who happens to be a famous PBA player (or something like that) and it happened to be on a tarpaulin. She fan-girled and I got jealous without her knowing, so instead of telling I got quiet. She then noticed it and we had a fight about it because I didn't tell what was up, but then later on we made up. Of course there's more, there was also this time where I had a video dancing, and there was this one part I got out of the screen but she thought I was still dancing. She was starring at some guy and she thought he was hot. It went something like this "You looked so hot there" she said, "What? Really? *silence* uh..babe, that's not me" I replied. There was just this awkward feeling between us that time. I felt so bad, for I thought it was really me. There's is just something in me where I just don't want to share and I get SO jealous at times.

As I was saying, she made me into a monster! I have never in my life thought I would be this selfish given the fact that she's a person. Well, if you come to think of it, She's mine anyway so I guess this will make sense. Like come on, who wants to share what's theirs!